Saturday, April 11, 2009
Break Ups are SO hard to do!
Well, were should I start?I just barely got out of a long term relationship with a guy who I thought I would be with for the rest of my life......I guess I was wrong. I never thought I would ever have to go through this kind of pain. It's both of our faults, we were fighting a lot and we just thought it would be best if we were just friends, well it was a hard decision....... trust me. When we first started going out on April 26th 2008, I thought he was the perfect boyfriend and he was, I loved talking to him on the phone, I could do it for hours, I thought nothing would ever take him away from me. We always promised each other that we would never break up with each other and I really believed that he was the one for me, we had so many memories but it's just so hard to let go of someone that was your whole world! I miss the way he would make funny jokes when I was sad, but I just wish it was more then that. We were like that perfect couple, I didn't want anyone else in the world but him, I thought I was going to marry him and have kids and move to Wyoming with him when we got older, but I guess dreams don't come true. Austin Woudenberg is a great guy and even though he hurt me.... doesn't mean he wont make a woman very happy. When you love someone you will do anything so that they are happy, well Austin wasn't happy with me, and people are mad that he did this to me but I am happy that he did it, to a degree. Of course I am crushed and can't pretend that this doesn't devastate me. I don't want someone to stay in a relationship if they don't love me anymore. I would rather that person break my heart because pretending your in love someone is way worse then just saying we should be friends. I will always love Austin no matter where life takes me, he was my first love and no one will take that away!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
I am so sorry you are going through that Maygy! I know how it feels to lose your first love. I remember feeling better when my friends were around and kept my mind off things. But when I was alone I was an absolute mess. I woud cry myself to sleep. I felt like there was this empty hole in my heart that no one would ever be able to feel again. Everytime I saw him at school I would get sick to my stomach. So believe me I know what your going through. I just wish that you hadn't banked your whole life on him. I am angry at your mother and his for ever letting it get so serious and letting you guys be together all the time. It wasn't healthy for either you or Austin. They should have stepped in and told you to cool it down. Thats why your dad and I were so against it. We were scared this was going to happen. I love you and you can talk to me about it any time. You WILL survive this! I love you so much.
ReplyDeleteI was with a guy who wasn't treating me right and it was when I was working at a girls camp Oakcrest and one time after talking to him on the phone I was in tears and the next day posted up next to the phone was a saying that has always stuck with me and I will forever be grateful for the subtle hint from a good friend. It said, "No boy is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry!" I love you Maygan I am sorry you are hurt, but really you shouldn't single date until 18 anyway!!!! Trust me it saves you a lot of pain it is so much funner to hang out in groups and a WHOLE LOT safer! Ü Love ya!
ReplyDelete